Hidden Sorrow Spread

 Prepare: Sandal wood incense
Tarot deck used: sun&moon

Spread:

****3****
1*2*5*6*7
****4****

1. What is your Regret, your Loss -- what or who did it involve?
seven of pentacle - failure
2. What was the Mistake you made?
six of wands reversed - victory

3. How do you Positively deal with this in current day-to-day life?
Princess of wand

4. How do you Negatively deal with this in current day-to-day life?
King of cup

5. How does this mistake/loss/regret Manifest in current da y-to-day life?
The lovers

6. Who or what is really Responsible for this?
Two of wands

7. How do you Move Forward from this?
Five of cups _ disapoint

I dont accept this card so I just drew a new one: the hermit reversed

Honestly, *chuckle* at 1st lock, I was shocked.
My regret is a "failure", and a mistake I made is a "victory reversed". Quite interesting !

The Seven of Pentacles indicates that if you have been working really hard or putting in extra effort into something, Sometimes, however, the Seven of Pentacles can denote frustration. The Seven of Pentacles may therefore represent fear of failure, delays and frustration.

In this card, I see a girl, a little girl in the red skirt who draw carefully 7 circle on the sand, under the marmalade sky, I feel like, the sunset. In the spacious desert, she draw lonely. (What is she trying to do? Why she doesnt step out of the seven circles and go somewhere) Look like, she forgot all the world.

The downside to the Six of Wands is that it can also bring self-importance, arrogance and egotistical behaviours. With victory you may come to think that nobody can be better than you and you end up with an inflated ego and a big head

I have a 2nd girl, dressing in red dancing under the empty sky. Her head leans on her arm. Is her dance, or she is tired? 5 torchs around and the 6th in her hand, is her dance, or a SOS'sign? On the peak alone, is she dance or she wanna jump?

So, I concentatred too much ona victory. I have been working so hard to get it, I even forgot everything else. But, in the end, subconsciously I accepted my failure which eventually become a frustration.Confronting my inner obstacles, I realize my fear and try to escape it (princess of wands, flying from the fire, with a flower in a hand under the star sky, this card recalls me a death-rebith card)
 



On opposite, The king of cups as a "Negatively deal with the regret in current day-to-day life" A king of cup, normally is a kind man, emotional balance and control, generosity. BIddy descript him as "the King of Cups expresses much more restraint in his emotional state. He is a master of his own feelings, and remains in control of his emotions. Not to say that he represses those feelings and sentiments" So, my fear of faillure make me repress my own emotion(quite right !) Then, I lose "the lovers" cards: My family, my friend, my hobbit (still have LoL), my victory's desire .... What is live when love lefted? Exist :)



A real responsible for this, is a guy in Yin and Yang dress with the 2 clubs in his hands. Face the fire wall, I still dont understand why is a dominion card. The only things I know, the dominating is solitary. I dont really get what the meaning of this card on this case, so I drew 2 more cards: Queen of wand then Seven of sword _ futility

Quite a confusing combo -_-

Then, how to get out of thats situation I got the hermit card + four swords cards. So clear, I need to take my time, to rest, needing to be alone, need "thinking things over, focusing inward, concentrating less on the senses, quieting yourself, looking for answers within, needing to understand"...

Yet...

But hell, about what????